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Recovery is sheer poetry
“SERV: A Poem of Thanksgiving”
November 2008

You took me in
When I had no place to
go
Gave me comfort and
structure
To help me grow
For this I thank you!
You’ve nurtured me
And encouraged me
Showed me the way
"Through “Recovery”
For this I thank you!
You gave me a voice
When I choked on the
tears
You let me know
I have a choice
Shanna-Rae M.
You eased my fears
For this I thank you!
I hope that in
The days to come
I’ll be the one
To overcome
Your program is 2nd to none
For this I thank you!
-- Shanna-Rae
Shanna-Rae M. loves to write poetry.
“Give me a subject and five minutes and I could come up with
one,” says Shanna-Rae, 47, a consumer with
SERV
Centers
Passaic
County
. In fact, her thoughts flow like a river
current when she is writing about SERV and recovery or penning a tribute to SERV-Passaic
Director Kim DeRosa “to make her feel special.”
There is hope and encouragement
In every word you speak
You have become
A champion for the weak
Shanna-Rae, who has had over 30 hospitalizations since 1977
before coming to SERV in February 2006 through
Greystone
Park
Psychiatric Hospital
, is
recovering from bipolar disorder and addiction and has borderline personality
disorder. She also engaged in self-injurious behavior (cutting), saying it made
her “feel alive” and relieved emotional pain.
Because Shanna-Rae is stable on her bipolar medication, has
been sober for more than two years and has not felt the need to cut herself for
the last 3½ years, she has graduated from an A-level apartment to more
independent living with two roommates in a B- level apartment. She is now
responsible for monitoring her own medications, cooking, cleaning, grocery
shopping and taking care of her transportation to get to the pharmacy and
elsewhere.
“Shanna-Rae is living independently with some staff
support,” says her Residential Program Manager Kara Fitzgerald. That support includes making sure Shanna-Rae
is on the right track with her medications, reviewing coping skills with her,
and encouraging her creative expression through writing and arts and crafts in
SERV- Passaic’s Adapt day program for adults. Shanna-Rae is inspiring to both
staff and other residents, says her RPM. “She is a role model for her peers by her participation and dedication
and getting others to participate in activities.”
Her activities include writing for the resident newsletter
and serving on the Steering Committee for SERV’s 7th annual Recovery
NJ Conference in the spring. The event is attended by more than 400 SERV
consumers, their families and healthcare professionals from the eight counties
where SERV has operations.
Taking part in activities in the Adapt program offers
Shanna-Rae the peer support she has come to enjoy. She welcomes hearing other residents’ success
stories because it offers “the realization that I’m not alone. Others have
attained success and I look up to them. (And I think), maybe I don’t have to cut myself.”
You have helped those who’ve fallen
To find a higher ground
And when we hear you callin’
It’s such as blessed sound
Before coming to SERV, Shanna-Rae worried that she wouldn’t
fit in. But, in the last three years,
she has seen a change in herself. “I had
been in other programs and wasn’t successful. With the support of peers and SERV staff, I am part of a link in a chain
of success stories,” she says. “SERV facilitated the hope that was already in
me.”
“Some places treat you like a patient first. SERV treated me like a person first, a
patient second.” She cites how SERV
Centers’ staff members greet her when she walks in for the day program and is interested
in hearing about her weekend activities. “SERV is interested in every aspect of my life – roommates, eating well,
achieving a goal of wellness and continuing on the path of recovery. Kim (DeRosa) always tells me her door is
open.”
What makes the difference for
Shanna-Rae is the relationships she has had with SERV staff and her RPM because
of “their willingness to care. They’ll
stop (and say) ‘What’s going on? Do you need to talk? I’m here to listen.’ I feel I can go to any one of them.”
You speak to us of dignity
Encouragement and hope
And your gentle ways of helping us
Gives us the tools we need to cope
When asked of her goals, Shanna-Rae is ready with an
immediate answer:
to go back to school, perhaps on a SERV Foundation
scholarship, to become an occupational therapist. “I’d like to give something
back, by doing service.” She also hopes
to eventually graduate to a C- level apartment where she would live even more independently
with staff support.
So as we work together
To find recovery
Any storm that comes we’ll weather
As our spirits are set free!
Shanna-Rae would like people who are still struggling with severe
mental illness to know that at SERV, “you’ll get your needs met. They serve the entire person – help you
physically, mentally, spiritually. SERV
taught me how to have a belief system. I
never thought I could live a day without intrusive thoughts coming into my
mind. With help, I am learning how to
cope.”
“SERV helps you to be the best YOU that you can be.”
“Recovery”
When I think about
recovery I think of a new start,
Changes of the mind
and changes of the heart.
It’s all about
beginnings and trying something new,
Taking off the
blinders and having a different point of view.
I know change is hard
but you’ll find it’s worth the while
Your self esteem will
grow and you’ll find your smile.
So let peace be your guide and together we will fly,
Above the pain and
sorrow if you’ll give it one more try!
- Shanna-Rae M
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